The Project That Scares Me

Do you have a project sitting in the back of your mind that you haven't started yet? I do!

I'm not going to tell you what it is, partly because it's not ready to be spoken out loud, and partly because I think most creative people know exactly the project I'm talking about without me having to name mine. I'm sure you have one too. The idea that keeps returning no matter how many times you set it aside. The one that feels more personal than anything else you've made, more exposed, more likely to fail in a way that would cost you in a significant way.

You think you're not ready for it, but you might be more ready than you think.

Fear is a reliable indicator in creative work, but it points in two directions, and you have to learn to read which one it's signaling. Sometimes fear means stop. The project isn't right, the timing isn't right, something needs more development before it's ready to be made.

But sometimes fear means go.

It means you're standing at the edge of something that matters enough to be a bit scary and uncertain, something that has the potential to be the most significant work you've done, if you can find the courage to begin it.

The project that scares you most is usually the one that has the most of you in it. Which means it's the one that has the most to give.

I'm working up to it. Maybe you are too.

Maybe we both just need permission to admit it's there to muster the courage to take that first step.

Is there a creative project you've been afraid to start? One that keeps coming back no matter how many times you set it aside? I'd love to hear about it in the comments.

Rooted Doesn't Mean Stationary

Being rooted sounds like staying put.

Like settling in, planting yourself, refusing to move. And for some people in some seasons, that's exactly what it looks like. A deliberate, courageous stillness in the face of pressure to drift.

But a tree's roots don't make it stationary. They make it mobile in a different way. They allow the branches to move dramatically, freely, in ways that would be dangerous without the underground stability holding everything in place. The deeper the roots, the more the tree can bend without breaking.

Rootedness in faith and purpose works the same way.

Some of the biggest moves of my life were only possible because of what was anchored underneath. These were decisions that looked from the outside like significant risk, like leaving the familiar for something uncertain. I couldn't have made them without that anchor. The faith that had been built slowly in the quiet seasons. The clarity about what mattered that had come through the difficult ones. The community that held me in place even as the circumstances shifted.

I couldn't have moved without the roots. The roots are what made the movement safe.

I think creative people especially can feel a false tension between being grounded and being adventurous. As if stability and risk are opposites. They're not. The most grounded people I know are often the bravest. And it's all because they're solidly rooted.

You don't have to choose between being anchored and being alive to possibility. The anchor is what makes the possibility survivable.

Has being grounded in faith, community, or purpose ever made it possible for you to take a risk you couldn't have taken otherwise? I'd love to hear about it in the comments.

The Question Every Audience Eventually Asks

It comes in different forms, but it's always the same question.

Sometimes it arrives directly: How do you find the courage to keep creating when you don't know if it matters? Sometimes it's more specific: How do you keep writing when no one seems to be reading? Sometimes it's quieter than that. It might not be a question at all but a look, a hesitation, the way someone lingers after a talk with something they can't quite bring themselves to say.

But it's always the same question underneath. Does this work mean anything? Am I making something that matters, or am I just making noise?

I've asked it myself more times than I can count. Every honest creative person has.

And I can't resolve the uncertainty. I still feel it nearly every day. However, one thing I've learned is you are almost never the right judge of your own work's impact. The piece you labored over and doubted and almost didn't finish is often the one that reaches someone in a way you'll never fully know. The moment you almost cut is often the moment someone else underlines, highlights, or marks with a dog-eared page.

You don't get to see most of what your work does in the world. You have to make it faithfully and release it and trust that it finds who it's meant to find.

That's not a comfortable answer. But it's the honest one. And every time I give it, I watch the person who asked the question visibly relax, as if permission to not know was exactly what they needed.

Create faithfully. Release bravely. Trust the rest.

Have you ever doubted whether your creative work matters? What brought you back to it anyway? I'd love to hear your story in the comments.